Saturday, January 16, 2010

The Lord is my LIGHT and my SALVATION

Where to start? I truly need someone to sit beside me and guide me in this feeling of emptiness and loss. I manage to pay the bills as soon as I receive them and sometimes even pay down the debt. The realtor has the paperwork in hand and will be taking pictures of the house - inside and out on Sunday. Because of a rebate for the buyers, he believes I could see the house sold by the end of April - if not maybe Mark could handle the final stage and I can "move on."
Maybe if I make some lists of things to do to clear the house of all the clutter and pack things I want to take, but do not need at this time. Also the "Big Brother/Big Sister" are making curbside pickups this Tuesday and it doesn't bother me to donate items versus making some kind of profit. One thing I'll do is place items in the basement I don't want to keep or vice versus?? I do have some things I consider "antiques" - who knows? Mark says I should go ahead and take a china closet with me, but I feel sorry for the guys who will have to carry it up one flight of stairs (if I get the apartment I would like.) I'm having second thoughts about my bedroom set (except the queen size bed/mattress/springs which I do not want.) Five minutes left - must hurry. I am sleeping well and if I get 7-8 hours I don't need a nap. I eat well usually 3 meals a day - even made date bread Friday but a little overcooked and dry. Looking forward to church tomorrow - it was a small crowd on Wednesday night. We are having special speakers since Pastor Shott and Sonie went to Hawaii to see their daughter whose husband is stationed at Pearl Harbor (Navy and to see their only grandchild, Chase.)


  1. Mom, you will get through this. I love you-just keep on going and you will be able to breathe again at the end of the tunnel. See you in Appril!!:)

  2. Yes, I know it is a time of feeling loss. Wished that you didn't live so far away. But Lord willing, you will soon be close.

    Praying for God to give you wisdom in the decisions you will have to make. Trust the house can sell before April.

  3. Carol you are not alone! God is with you, carrying you, don't you see his footsteps in the sand? And your family supports you...think of us, we will give you strength even thou we are far away! I would say keep the china closet & don't worry about any young guys that can carry it up ONE flight! One thing I can say...don't throuw out any photos! Anything that looks antiquish have it checked out, keep it, Juliet or Louise may want it to make some money on it or save it for beauty's worth! Beside Louise has a friend who is into Antiques! If I hadn't already been 2 months in the States, I would come. Besides I have projects myself with Jan's 60th coming up...!
    Making lists is the way I do it... & I give myself 1 hours for this or 2 hrs for that & my day is quickly over; In fact I have to stop now to go what my daily German Police serie on TV. I already had lunch with Anna who had to go takes some tests to get a job in a library.